Interesting that this is what my life is at this moment. Moms writing a blog..30 days to 30..last post was day 4..her post brought tears to my eyes. We had made it through our family splitting up. She did a lot of walking and I ate cheese puffs…wonder if that has anything to do with my current weight situation. It’s a weird thought to think about as a child what happens to the parents that get divorced..I would think that they would go through double..for themselves and then for their child. I would imagine that would be a tough decision to make as a wife & mother to decide that you would be a better off mother by not being a wife to this person. Granted I know that dad was going through things as well..but mom was the person that I experienced being with the most and so her energy mingled with mine more often plus I wonder if being female had anything to do with it. Back to this moment and I’m reflective of the life and moments that I’m undergoing..I live with my boyfriend of almost 7 months altho we were together last year for about 5 months so we’re not super new to each other but there’s still a lot that we don’t know about each other and things that we haven’t or don’t talk about..we live with his dog of 3 years & her litter of pups who will be 7 weeks tomorrow…I’m keeping one of them but for now we have 5 dogs in our living space..I’ve never owned an animal so this is all extremely new to me..all of it, living with him..his dog..having a dog of my own..there’s a lot of changes going on and it’s been interesting to reflect on them..I’ve done quite a bit of freaking out but I think that may be a part of my process and ultimately what makes me..me.
Posted on Saturday, 6 August 2011
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